The Anguish of Uni Life
chrixx | March 26, 2005Want to read this post? Contact me
A few months ago, I was contemplating if I had made the right choice in terms of uni and courses. I had been an ambitious student who used to only worry about going after the best, toughest universities and the most challenging degrees. Well, I guess I did managed that, but it’s really not an experience to cherish.
Never did I expect uni life to be so demanding and competitive. The environment is stressful. The challenges are endless and failure is a reality I might have to face. Being in the “comfort zone” for so long, I seem to have trouble adjusting to the harsh realities of life. I doubt my capabilities, I lose my confidence and self-esteem. I fall into depression, resurface feeling bad about myself. I get higly-emotional over every little thing due to the psychological distress I suffer.
Like my lecturer said, we can no longer continue with our “shooting for the stars” mindset as uni life is not all blissful, particularly so when you’re in a demanding course. Well, the root of my problems is that I lack spatial intelligence, an important ingredient to succeed in programming. I can reason, but I can’t form logical structures as required in computing.
My world is falling apart and I’m trying my best to rebuild the fallen parts. It is difficult, I know, but without an optimistic view of everything, I can’t succeed. The essence to being a good uni student is to maintain a positive outlook to every single challenges. I might be in the wrong course (some might say), but I never give up. I believe in my choices and shall perservere over all future challenges.





